Hello 2012,
I don’t think you’re ready for this, but I thought I’d give you a warning. This is going to be the year of getting what I want. Brace yourself.
Sincerely,
Tiffany
About five months ago I embarked on a mission to take back time for myself. At that time my life was so overrun by doing for others that I forgot to just stop…and breathe. So, I pulled back from events, workshops, classes, and overall drama to re-center myself.
I am now one month into the New Year and I feel calm, collected, and aligned. I’ve been more honest with myself in the past few months than I have in years. In addition, I’ve stopped biting my tongue when it comes to things that bother me simply because I was/am afraid my words might hurt someone.
I’ve gotten back to meditating, masturbating, music, and me.
So what’s next?
Its time to purge…again.
When I studied abroad in Japan I spent a little over one month of my spring break living and practicing in a Zen temple in the mountains of Okayama. I had no computer, no phone, no meat, no drama, no social etiquette/appearances to keep up with… it was annoying. I wore the same thing almost everyday and meditated at least 7 hours a day. I did mindless tasks (like raking leaves in the forest or cutting bamboo). It took a little over a week for my “society” withdrawal to subside, but when it did, it was quiet. It was nice not to be surrounded by things that were essentially dragging me down.
Which brings me back to the purging. I’m ready to rid myself of things I don’t need: material possessions, negative energy and emotions, drama, people who bring me down, unnecessary burdens, etc…
Going into this past event (WW 2012) I was fairly excited. The theme revolved around one of my fetishes and there were quite a few classes I was interest in. In short, I had already anticipated having a good time. What I did not expected, however, was how the weekend would affect me. I won’t go into too many details in this post, but suffice it to say that through a series of conversations, bootblacking, and a few scenes I was able to confirm my interest(s) in certain things. Not only that, but I have also re-fueled my passion for other things I already knew I was interested in.
I’m calling the experience “Kink Enlightenment”.
Piper says I’ve “found my calling.”
To sum up my discovery in a few words:
Bootblacking, leather, and service speak to my soul in a profound way.
So 2012 is going to be the year to explore that.
This has been a long overdue adventure.
